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Mommy, why does change have to be so hard?

2006-11-16T22:17:00.000-08:00

Good lord, it's been since August since I last blogged? Shows just how boring my life usually is.

Anywho, new drama. We're finally moving, but we aren't staying in Jacksonville like we originally planned. We are moving back to Pensacola, FL where we all swore we would never go back to. I'm not sure how I feel about this, really. I want to go back because it is close to my family and my friends (the people who I still consider friends), but the pay is less there. Is happiness really worth being semi broke? I guess it would be. I hate Jacksonville, and I have since I got here, but I'm really not a fan of Pensacola either. Blech. At least going home for holidays won't be as bad as it is now. I am happier knowing that I am moving back there, than I was thinking we were staying in Jacksonville, so I guess one would consider this the right choice. Right? Give me some backup here.

We put in our 30 day notice with our apartment complex and with our jobs. Now the only thing to do is find a job in Pensacola. I am going to call all the Marriotts there to see if I could do a transfer. Here's hoping. I pray I can get paid about the same amount. GAH. All this stress. I have anxiety issues in the first place, and this crap just puts me on edge even more.

I'll bring you food, I promise.

2006-08-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

Don't ever look at your gas guage and think "I have enough to make it there". Really, you don't have enough to make it there. Wherever there is. I don't care if there is 2 blocks down the street, or 27 miles across town. YOU AREN'T GOING TO MAKE IT. I learned this the hard way tonight. Yeah, laugh all you want....I ran out of gas. Stupid gas. This is why I need a car that runs purely on electricity. This way, it doesn't matter if I make bad decisions about thinking I could make it.

Fucker.

2006-08-07T21:19:00.000-07:00

Well, ignore the last blog. The general manager asked the front desk staff if anyone wanted the job, and even though two of us were interested he hired someone from another hotel....THAT DAY. How the fuck are you going to ask, and then not care enough for either one of us to apply? What a dick. Plus, I gave him my income verification for my new apartment and somehow he "misplaced" it. My manager then found it (the one who is leaving) and gave it to me saying he found it "somewhere". So.....my GM didn't find it important enough that I have a place to live. What a dick.

That's alright though. If I don't have a place to live, I will rent out 2 connecting rooms for FREE for as long as it takes to get his act right.

Am I cut out for this?

2006-08-07T00:56:00.000-07:00

My manager put in his two week notice. I want his job...I think. Am I cut out to become a manager? Do I really want to work that much? I mean, it isn't that much, but still. I want his rate of pay, and I truely believe I could do an awesome job, but I am afraid to apply. Why the hell am I afraid to apply? Ugh. I make no sense. Someone talk some sense into me. Beat me, yell at me, whatever, just make me apply.

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2006-08-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

Boo. That is all.

So maybe there is a god.

2006-08-06T21:23:00.000-07:00

I went to give the 30 day notice to my current apartment complex (since we needed a bigger apartment and they didn't have one available). We went into the lady's office with our file and she took out the 30 day notice page. She then asked why we were leaving so we told her. She looked at us kinda funny and said she would be right back. So, she gets back and says she has two 2 bedroom/2 bathroom apartments available if we are interested in staying there. We told her we weren't interested, but she then said she would lift ALL the costs of switching (reapplying for the apartment, transfer fee, rent for half a month). How could someone say no to that?

So, all in all, we are staying here and moving to B202 (for whoever wants to stalk me).

Things never can be easy, can they?

2006-08-02T22:23:00.000-07:00

Christian's little sister moved in with us about a month ago when she turned 18. All of us thought that was the best decision since her and their mom don't get along at all. So...after all this is said and done, we try to put her into the public high school in our district (she's a senior this year). We go to the old school to get her transcripts and to withdraw her from there. The old hag in the office then proceeds to tell her she can't get her transcripts or transfer out of school because her guardian isn't with her. "Umm...ok. I'm 18. There is no guardian." Well, that doesn't matter because according to this lady, she needs a parent or guardian to pull her out of school. So, you mean to tell me someone can legally drop out of high school without parental consent when they are 16, but they can't switch schools when they are 18? How the fuck does that work? -sigh-

So, we leave that school because we are tired of not getting a straight answer. We then drive across town to her new school to see if she can just enroll in there. They want a copy of her transcripts.... GAH! We can't get those.

We then drive home and call the school board. They tell us that all that running around and arguing with the lady was completely unnecessary and that we should have just called them (the school board) first. Ugh thanks lady. How sweet of you. Either way though, she did help us out. She said her former school has no idea what they are talking about and she doesn't need a guardian. The school has no idea what they are talking about either since they don't need a copy of her transcripts.

People are idiots. You would think schools, out of all places, would have a clue about laws and how things work. With as many students as there are, you'd think they would have to get this stuff right. Apparently not.

Gas is too expensive to be running across the city (about 30 miles each way) plus Nicole ended up being late to work because she has to get this taken care of so she can go back to school on Monday. All in all, I want my damn money back. Stupid gas.

The beginning

2006-08-02T22:11:00.000-07:00

I have started way to many blogs in my life, but I plan on trying to keep up with this one. With that said, on to the boringness of me.

-I'm 22 and I still don't really know what I want to do with my life.

Yup. That's about it. I planned on making a long drawn out list about my life and where I see myself in 20 years, and blah blah blah. For now, that's basically all I can think about. It's pounded into my head by my mother and my brilliant cousins. When are you going back to college? Are you going to finish nursing school even though you aren't sure that's what you want to do? Why aren't you married yet? Why don't you make better money? Why aren't you as smart as us (no, they haven't asked that, but damn it, they might as well). It hurts to know my family isn't really behind me. I know it's difficult for them considering I am the fuck up of the family. Truely. Let me give you a little background.

-My uncle has 5 PhD's. 5. Fuck man, how am I suppose to live up to that?
-My cousin in married, is a music director for a well known music school, makes awesome money, has a new baby, has the all around wonderful life.
-My other cousin is brilliant. I don't know what he IQ is, but I really don't want to either as it will make me feel terrible.
-Most of my cousins are married, have cute babies crawling around and they live in beautiful houses. I live in a studio apartment on the bad side of town.
-My aunt owns her own Christian school.

I like my life, I really do. I'm not unhappy with it, so why should they be? It's like, my mom won't leave me alone about getting married. She won't leave Christian alone either. Everytime she sees us she asks us about marriage. Mom, shut the fuck up. You make the entire situation uncomfortable for the both of us. It will happen when it happens. I love him, and he loves me. So really, what's the problem? We are living in sin? Wah. The sin is good. Feels great.

-sigh- I'm done ranting for now.
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